just an update

Hey my followers,hope all of you are doing fantastic!im doing pretty good.a new semester has started for me so skool an work has been keeping me busy.F0r labor day my family bbq'ed and we all got together..ive been thinking i want to change the aspect of my blog..any ideas??i do have a youtube that ive been trying to get up an running.so i'll be thinking of ideas for my blog.keep in touch everybody!SM00CHES <3

rejuvenated...

sooo last nite i decided to go out after contemplating the idea just about the whole day! lol but am i glad that i went. i kno its bcuz how uncomfortable i am with myself is why i dont go out much but what a good stress relief it is. i had a lot of fun and kinda tired, but its worth it. going out is just not a good time,its gets my mind of things that bother me. well i'll wait a while to go again but cant wait til the next time.Now im goin back to bed.goodnite/morning!lol

so..why does it seem like everytime i post a new blog its in the early a.m.? i must admit im not much of a sleeper so im excited that i have discovered this blog stuff..but anyway really random: im cannot wait until kourtney&khloe kardashian's new show comes on! im so happy bcuz the spotlight will not be on kim anymore..i mean no offense but how did she become famouse again?sex tape w/ray j and hanging out with paris hilton..but i love them two and i feel like me and khloe would be good friends if only i actually knew her in real life..lmao is anyone else excited about the show?..leave a comment-follow me!

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who I am.

this is just another picture of myself im posting just to let ppl kno who i am a little bit better!

MY STATE OF BEING AS OF JULY 6, 2009

My mood i would deff. have to say is lonley..its not jus a single lonley that feel, but i feel like im completely bymyself. for starters im not really too happy bcuz im stuck livin wit my parents for the summer and I hate it! the older i get the more i drift away from them..its not that i dont love them but im soo useto being on my own and have grown to just wanted to live on my own. The way they treat me isnt helping at all either. Being the middle child is horrible bcuz you do feel like the outkast of the family. I am treated very differently from my sisters..but dont think i dont stick up for myself. Its just that living in a house wher you're constantly defending yourself is really tiresome. that is why im soo happy when im away at college! since im now a senior it make me even more happier knowing im almost to the end of my dependency stage of life. I must admit that even though i know a lot of ppl and is easy to talk to ,one thing i want to work on is becoming more outgoing in this semester coming up. my goal is to meet a ton of new ppl and do things i never thought of doing. i really want to go back as a different person and not just being stuck in my apt. most of the time. The number one problem is worrying wut ppl think about me. Not being able to express myself by dreading people's opinion about it. But ill try my hardest to change that. It wont come over nite, but im workin on it. well, im bout to head to bed,ill be up extremely early in the morning to go workout. GOODNITE!

The begining.

HEY WORLD, IM MELISSA; A 22 YEAR OLD COLLEGE STUDENT FROM A SMALL TOWN CALLED HOUMA, LOUISIANA. LOOKING FROM THE OUTSIDE INTO MY LIFE SOMEONE WOULD PROBABLY BELIEVE I LIVE A VERY HAPPY AND PROMISING LIFE. YES I AM A COLLEGE SENIOR WITH A CAR AND MY OWN APARTMENT BUT IN ALL REALITY IM REALLY NOT HAPPY AND HAVE NO IDEA WHATS MY PLACE NOR PURPOSE IN LIFE..I GUESS THATS ABOUT RIGHT PEOPLE BELIEVE IN COLLEGE ITS ALL ABOUT FINDING YOURSLF. BUT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU'RE ALMOST AT THE END AND STILL HAVE NO CLUE WHO YOU ARE. I LOVE THE LIFE THAT I WAS BLESSED WITH BUT I DO BELIEVE OR TRY TO MAKE MYSELF BELEVE THAT THERE'S ONE THING STANDING IN THE WAY OF MY HAPPINESS. THAT ONE THING IS THE POWERFUL THING IN THE WORLD THAT CAN MAKE OR BREAK SOMEONE IN WHICH EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING SEEKS OUT. THAT THING IS "L-O-V-E." WELL, THE WHOLE REASON FOR ME STARTING THIS BLOG IS TO ESPRESS MYSELF TO ANYONE WHO TAKES THE TIME TO READ IT! KEEP IN TOUCH.