MY STATE OF BEING AS OF JULY 6, 2009

My mood i would deff. have to say is lonley..its not jus a single lonley that feel, but i feel like im completely bymyself. for starters im not really too happy bcuz im stuck livin wit my parents for the summer and I hate it! the older i get the more i drift away from them..its not that i dont love them but im soo useto being on my own and have grown to just wanted to live on my own. The way they treat me isnt helping at all either. Being the middle child is horrible bcuz you do feel like the outkast of the family. I am treated very differently from my sisters..but dont think i dont stick up for myself. Its just that living in a house wher you're constantly defending yourself is really tiresome. that is why im soo happy when im away at college! since im now a senior it make me even more happier knowing im almost to the end of my dependency stage of life. I must admit that even though i know a lot of ppl and is easy to talk to ,one thing i want to work on is becoming more outgoing in this semester coming up. my goal is to meet a ton of new ppl and do things i never thought of doing. i really want to go back as a different person and not just being stuck in my apt. most of the time. The number one problem is worrying wut ppl think about me. Not being able to express myself by dreading people's opinion about it. But ill try my hardest to change that. It wont come over nite, but im workin on it. well, im bout to head to bed,ill be up extremely early in the morning to go workout. GOODNITE!